Breathe in....

I wanted to update with Christmas pictures but blogger is not letting me do that today for some reason.  You will have to listen to my inspiration from today instead.  Sorry ;)

We have searched and searched for the right place for us to go to church. I am not a church joiner.  In short, I never 100 % agree with any denomination so I have never joined.  I am also very stubborn in my opinions, shocker, so if you try to tell me this a mandatory thing that I must do I am not going to listen to you at all about it.  So don't worry about that discussion.  That is not the point of this story.  We left G's childhood church about 3 years ago. I can't believe it has been that long.  We became very involved in another local church and loved it.  We helped start a new Sunday School, met such a wonderful group of people, but I still felt something was missing.  Greg and I went one day to try out a new church this summer. I felt immediatly at home. It is a brand new church, which if you asked me a year ago if I would go to a church that doesn't even have a buidling I might laugh at you for saying that.  All this to say we have been attending there for about six months now, which leads me to today....or maybe I should start with Christmas Eve.

Every year on Christmas we would go to the 11 service. It was such a quiet service honoring the birth of our Savior and I loved it.  One of my most memorable ones was on a trip back to Dyersburg for Christmas with my grandparents and we went back to my childhood church for Christmas Eve service.  It felt so right to be there.  I loved that night so much.  Fast forward to now and each Christmas Eve I attend a church of some sort.  It has been YEARS since I felt the way I used to feel on Christmas Eve. This year we attended our new church.  I watched my baby girl sing her heart out as she was dressed up as an angel.  My son held on tightly to me through the whole service.  Tears of joy filled my eyes because I knew I was home.  Finally.  I sent our pastor a message that night of thanks.  He took a huge step to start this church.  Sometimes when I sit there I am thankful for all the people that began it because they were doing it for ME.  I know it is not just for me, but there are seriously moments that I feel like that.

Today, I was spoken to so much during the service.  Have you ever breathed in the holy spirit?  I know you might think I am crazy, go ahead, because a lot of things I say in life you might think I am crazy.  Songs are what get to me in church.  I had a moment today where I felt the holy spirit and I breathed in.  I was filled.  Seriously 100 % filled.  As the song played I felt God speak to me.  It was a sense of HOME.  I was finally HOME.  That is something I will forever be thankful for.  I hope this year I take the time to breathe in the holy spirit.  I hope that as it lives in my I am worthy of all the things Christ did for me.  I try everyday to thank God for my MANY, MANY blessings.  I am so very blessed and sometimes I worry it is all about to snap or fall away from me.  I just have to trust in Him that He will lead us through.  All this to say, I want to encourage you to stop and breathe in the breath of heaven.  Stop and listen. I am eternally grateful I did today. 

Love to you all! :)

Gone mobile!

Well I finally figured out how to post from my phone!! Maybe, just maybe I will be able to post more now! :) fingers crossed!!

Happy Birthday Kennedy!

Kennedy and Wynn had their birthday breakfast celebration at school on Tuesday!  Sweet December birthdy girls! :) They had so much fun celebrating! Kennedy is having such a good year in Kindergarten!! 

 

 The birthday girls!!  Born 10 days apart! I can't believe it has been 6 years!!!

Kickoff to Christmas!

K danced in the FBC Christmas program for the second year in a row. It is our official beginning to the Christmas season around here!  We are so proud of our girl! 

 

Tennessee Trip!

We had so much fun visiting Blake and the fam in Tennessee over Fall break!  Moments to cherish :)  The kids had a BLAST at Dollywood!! 

 

Happy Fall Y'all!

Heartache

I got a phone call a few weeks ago that I will never forget.  I can't go into detail here because I don't want to publish her story.  She can do that on her own if she wants.  It is such a story that impacted me to my core though.  I needed to capture how I felt here, so I will never forget.  Time heals all wounds they say.  I don't want time to make me forget.  I found myself in a situation I could not control, that I wanted to change from the core of my soul. I cried out to God to stop what was going on. I begged for him to change it. I prayed for a MIRACLE.  I prayed as hard as I have ever prayed.  I cried tears for my dear sweet friend for hours. I tried so hard to bear her pain so she didn't have to. I kept praying.  Some might say our prayers were not answered in the end. I don't like to view it that way.  The entire time I was begging for a miracle, I was also praying for His will for this.  In the end, His will prevailed and I did not understand.  I didn't understand at all. I did not find myself angry, but very confused.  I felt the call to go to her. I needed to be there with her during this time.  I drove up to visit for the day and had the honor to hold her sweet miracle.  I can never in my life describe this experience adequately but I will say I am forever changed by meeting this precious miracle.  He changed my life in an instant.  He changed how I look at my children.  He changed how I look at each day.  He changed each moment I am frustrated with my kids. He changed everything about me. 

 

She's a great woman of faith, my dear sweet friend.  She's strong.  She has always walked with His grace.  You know that the moment you meet her.  She's always been like that.  It is one of my favorite things about her.  My prayers for her family have changed to praying for peace for her. I can sit and question why, but I would rather sit and pray.  God has a reason for everything.  I truly stand here and believe that.  This precious angel changed my life the moment I met him.  I am sure his little life is impacting everyone who knows this precious family.  Please join me in praying for my friend and her family.  Love to you all!