Heartache

I got a phone call a few weeks ago that I will never forget.  I can't go into detail here because I don't want to publish her story.  She can do that on her own if she wants.  It is such a story that impacted me to my core though.  I needed to capture how I felt here, so I will never forget.  Time heals all wounds they say.  I don't want time to make me forget.  I found myself in a situation I could not control, that I wanted to change from the core of my soul. I cried out to God to stop what was going on. I begged for him to change it. I prayed for a MIRACLE.  I prayed as hard as I have ever prayed.  I cried tears for my dear sweet friend for hours. I tried so hard to bear her pain so she didn't have to. I kept praying.  Some might say our prayers were not answered in the end. I don't like to view it that way.  The entire time I was begging for a miracle, I was also praying for His will for this.  In the end, His will prevailed and I did not understand.  I didn't understand at all. I did not find myself angry, but very confused.  I felt the call to go to her. I needed to be there with her during this time.  I drove up to visit for the day and had the honor to hold her sweet miracle.  I can never in my life describe this experience adequately but I will say I am forever changed by meeting this precious miracle.  He changed my life in an instant.  He changed how I look at my children.  He changed how I look at each day.  He changed each moment I am frustrated with my kids. He changed everything about me. 

 

She's a great woman of faith, my dear sweet friend.  She's strong.  She has always walked with His grace.  You know that the moment you meet her.  She's always been like that.  It is one of my favorite things about her.  My prayers for her family have changed to praying for peace for her. I can sit and question why, but I would rather sit and pray.  God has a reason for everything.  I truly stand here and believe that.  This precious angel changed my life the moment I met him.  I am sure his little life is impacting everyone who knows this precious family.  Please join me in praying for my friend and her family.  Love to you all!