Moving forward in faith..

Happy news to report! We have a contact on the house! I got really worried about finding somewhere to move, but by the grace of God we have found that too! It is my prayer as we walk through this transition and I seek out what God wants for my family. He has provided us a perfect rental home in our neighborhood and that was such a blessing!  We want a bigger house. That I a a big want and not a need I am aware. It is my hope and prayer that being able to build a larger home, that I can open it up to so many people. I want my house to be a place where anyone and very one is welcome. I want messy kids throwing themselves on my furniture and eating all my food. I want to host church gatherings and meetings. I want it to be a place where my kids enjoy growing up and anyone and everyone feels welcome. I am praying us through every step of the way. Greg is really worried about the  build sing a house journey, but it is my hope and prayer that we really pray about each and everything and it will all turn out just as it should. So here beings a new journey for my sweet little family, as we step out from our little world here in middleground and step out into a whole new experience! I can't wait to see what the future holds!! 

Sweet summertime

Well summer is here and maybe, just maybe I will pick back up on this blogging. I am hoping someday my kids will care enough to read about their childhoods. We shall see about that one! My hope for this summer is that it is full of laughter, lots of downtime, tons of books, conversations, games, and just plain old school fun! I spent some time playing with the card shark of the family tonight. This boy is way too competive. He started it off with a stacked deck on his part full of all draw 4 cards. I love old school summer time fun. Tonight was no and chalk tic tac toe in the driveway. Tomorrow afternoon officially begins my summer! I am so thankful to have endless days aged of me to enjoy these miracles. Here's to summer 2015! May it be the best one yet!! 

Moments that last forever

Sometimes motherhood is filled with dirty dishes, ending fights, washing clothes, endless worry... But then we are given precious moments that we want to remember. Tonight is one of those. I have my boy all to myself and he is snuggled up with me. I will never in my life forget the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me. He gently takes my face in his hands  and kisses me oh so sweetly. I ask if he will ever love another girl like he loves me. His reply "maybe." I know all too soon that sweet heart of his will be all grown and he will fall in love. She is one lucky girl I know that for sure. All I could think of tonight is that I will forever cherish that look in his eyes and when he is all grown I will always remember the moments of how he loved me the most.. I love you so much Whitfield Daniel. You've had my heart since the day I found out you existed. My life is so much better because of you. What a lucky girl she is out there growing up somewhere, to someday meet you and fall in love.i sure hope she knows what an amazing person you are. 

Moments that last forever

Sometimes motherhood is filled with dirty dishes, ending fights, washing clothes, endless worry... But then we are given precious moments that we want to remember. Tonight is one of those. I have my boy all to myself and he is snuggled up with me. I will never in my life forget the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me. He gently takes my face in his hands  and kisses me oh so sweetly. I ask if he will ever love another girl like he loves me. His reply "maybe." I know all too soon that sweet heart of his will be all grown and he will fall in love. She is one lucky girl I know that for sure. All I could think of tonight is that I will forever cherish that look in his eyes and when he is all grown I will always remember the moments of how he loved me the most.. I love you so much Whitfield Daniel. You've had my heart since the day I found out you existed. My life is so much better because of you. What a lucky girl she is out there growing up somewhere, to someday meet you and fall in love.i sure hope she knows what an amazing person you are. 

People

I love how life brings people into our lives and we are never the same. Kennedy cried and cried tonight because she missed Grandma. She did this as she snuggled the baby blanket my grandmother made for a baby crib of mine when I was little. These women who came before us are so important. These great people, that started families and worked so hard are still such an important part of our lives. My Mama would have loved Kennedy. Grandma loved Kennedy. I am so blessed to come from such wonderful people. So all those tears tonight were hard. It is hard to watch an 8 year old grieve. Yet, it is somehow so precious to know how important Grandma was to her. She is loved beyond measure with all those great women in heaven. I hope when you are all grown up, Kennedy, you realize what strong women you come from.the list is too long to make, but I feel confident in the fact that you too will become a strong woman and I am so proud of you. 

Reminiscing....

We are embarking on the scary journey of selling our house.  I am ready. My little, precious family, needs something bigger.  But nobody prepares you for the roller coaster of emotions that go into selling and buying a new home.  2 kids bought this house.  KIDS.  Seriously I don't know why we got approved for a loan we were so young and immature. ;)  I can't stop looking around and praying that this home means something to the new owners, whoever they end up to be.  It is hard having people trek through your home and decide it is just not for them.  Maybe they hated my white appliances, or my too stained carpet....over and over they don't put an offer in an it starts to hurt your feelings!  Yet, tonight, after two showings this weekend, and I don't think I sat down the whole weekend, I am so filled with prayer about our next "owners" of this precious house.  I knew it was ours immediately.  It was just the two of us and Riley.  It was PERFECT.  We moved in, set up a guest room, and office, and settled in.  Our long journey for Kennedy involved many hours of me sitting in her future nursery crying and praying I would get to meet her someday.  I just wanted her to exist, and make it into my arms.  I sat with my sweet friends for ours in the rocking chairs on the front porch of this house.  HOURS and hours where we solved life's problems.  The conversations during those times were ones I cherish, those moments were actually priceless but I didn't know that at the time.  We didn't have kids, we all wanted them and each journey was different, but somehow out there on that little front porch, it just made you feel better to rock and talk about it.  Years passed and babies came....then they grew into little toddlers around this yard.  A swing set erected in that backyard, laughter began, and my little family grew.  There have been so many times of great joy here.  We welcomed two babies into this home.  We welcomed a crazy new puppy.  We celebrated birthdays here, celebrated anniversaries and milestones.   Christmas morning after Christmas morning was celebrated in this little white house that we call ours.  Living next door to your best friends in the world is quite as you would imagine it, absolutely perfect.  We are never out of ketchup, but most of all we are never all alone in the world.  There is always a shoulder to cry on, a shirt to borrow, a friend to help diagnose some weird thing going on with your kid, a lawnmower to share, dinners to grill....the list is endless. Yet somehow we have the courage and faith to step out of this comfort zone we are in.  We are stepping out with faith that God has a plan for us.  I love this house.  I love every single memory in it.  We have had our share of sorrows here, but the joys outweigh those by far.  So it is my prayer tonight, not that I sell it, but that the new owners (wherever you are) are as blessed with this home as we have been.  I pray happiness over this place in the world. I pray for the little family or beginning of a family that someday moves in here. I pray that it brings them even more joy than it has brought us. This stepping out is scary, and I am super attached to memories in life, but I do know that God has great things in store for all of us, we just have to have the courage to move forward and follow Him.  It isn't time to say goodbye to you, sweet little white house, but i know someday soon it might be. My heart is ready, but know I will carry your memories and joy with me always.

Mommy!

"Mommy! I need you!" Words that sometimes I just want to ignore and sit. All I want to do is sit. I never get to sit down.... Then there are the days of clarity where I hear that sweet voice say "mommy! I need you!" And I realize that this moment is fleeting and some day I will long for those words. So today, I have clarity for the next 60 seconds or so and I  am happy I am needed. I am happy I am still called mommy. I am happy to have two sweet blessings in my life to watch grow.