Reminiscing....

We are embarking on the scary journey of selling our house.  I am ready. My little, precious family, needs something bigger.  But nobody prepares you for the roller coaster of emotions that go into selling and buying a new home.  2 kids bought this house.  KIDS.  Seriously I don't know why we got approved for a loan we were so young and immature. ;)  I can't stop looking around and praying that this home means something to the new owners, whoever they end up to be.  It is hard having people trek through your home and decide it is just not for them.  Maybe they hated my white appliances, or my too stained carpet....over and over they don't put an offer in an it starts to hurt your feelings!  Yet, tonight, after two showings this weekend, and I don't think I sat down the whole weekend, I am so filled with prayer about our next "owners" of this precious house.  I knew it was ours immediately.  It was just the two of us and Riley.  It was PERFECT.  We moved in, set up a guest room, and office, and settled in.  Our long journey for Kennedy involved many hours of me sitting in her future nursery crying and praying I would get to meet her someday.  I just wanted her to exist, and make it into my arms.  I sat with my sweet friends for ours in the rocking chairs on the front porch of this house.  HOURS and hours where we solved life's problems.  The conversations during those times were ones I cherish, those moments were actually priceless but I didn't know that at the time.  We didn't have kids, we all wanted them and each journey was different, but somehow out there on that little front porch, it just made you feel better to rock and talk about it.  Years passed and babies came....then they grew into little toddlers around this yard.  A swing set erected in that backyard, laughter began, and my little family grew.  There have been so many times of great joy here.  We welcomed two babies into this home.  We welcomed a crazy new puppy.  We celebrated birthdays here, celebrated anniversaries and milestones.   Christmas morning after Christmas morning was celebrated in this little white house that we call ours.  Living next door to your best friends in the world is quite as you would imagine it, absolutely perfect.  We are never out of ketchup, but most of all we are never all alone in the world.  There is always a shoulder to cry on, a shirt to borrow, a friend to help diagnose some weird thing going on with your kid, a lawnmower to share, dinners to grill....the list is endless. Yet somehow we have the courage and faith to step out of this comfort zone we are in.  We are stepping out with faith that God has a plan for us.  I love this house.  I love every single memory in it.  We have had our share of sorrows here, but the joys outweigh those by far.  So it is my prayer tonight, not that I sell it, but that the new owners (wherever you are) are as blessed with this home as we have been.  I pray happiness over this place in the world. I pray for the little family or beginning of a family that someday moves in here. I pray that it brings them even more joy than it has brought us. This stepping out is scary, and I am super attached to memories in life, but I do know that God has great things in store for all of us, we just have to have the courage to move forward and follow Him.  It isn't time to say goodbye to you, sweet little white house, but i know someday soon it might be. My heart is ready, but know I will carry your memories and joy with me always.

Mommy!

"Mommy! I need you!" Words that sometimes I just want to ignore and sit. All I want to do is sit. I never get to sit down.... Then there are the days of clarity where I hear that sweet voice say "mommy! I need you!" And I realize that this moment is fleeting and some day I will long for those words. So today, I have clarity for the next 60 seconds or so and I  am happy I am needed. I am happy I am still called mommy. I am happy to have two sweet blessings in my life to watch grow. 

Summer 2014

It was one of the best yet! Here are some of my favorite moments of the summer!! So thankful to have made great memories this year!!

The Magic of Disney

It is a moment that you don't ever forget. That first glimpse of cinderlla's castle, the first sighting of your favorite Disney character, your first ride on space mountain, the shows, the fireworks, the music.... It is all so full of magic. This week we got to watch our kids have those special moments and got to relive our own with them. It is just something about Disney world that brings back such good memories! My top moments of the week...

Princess lunch: I totally cried when she met belle in the castle. All I saw was her joy, and realizing that she won't always love princesses like this, and soaking in the moment, I totally cried. Then I cried when she met all of her favorite princesses! She was so shy with them which is not like her at all! I cried the whole meal...;) 

Space mountain with Whit: he is a roller coaster junkie! He loved every minute and yelled at the end to go again!!!

My whitty and the things he says...I tucked him in one night and I said "do you love Disney world?" His reply. " I do love it so much, but I love you more than Disney world." Tear....

Midnight at Disney: Kennedy helped us shut down the park one night at it was so fun!! She looked at me at one point and said, " let's skip!" I totally skipped through fantasy land, hand in hand with my baby girl and I will never forget that moment...

Parades: oh the joy and excitement on their faces!! Priceless!!!

Meeting mickey: whit didn't want to at all. He fell right before we went in the room. He was clinging to me like crazy. Kennedy walks right up to him and hugs him. Whit takes a minute and then mickey gets him to see how high he can jump. So there they are, jumping with mickey, kids giggling... Moment filed away forever in my heart.

The bibbodi bobbidi boo, may all your dreams come true, has new meaning to me now. Childhood should be celebrated. Disney is a place to spend lots of time together, even though you are worn out, and put all your hours and Moments into making memories. What a magical place, and what wonderful memories we made with our family. Loved every moment!! May all your dreams come true!! 

Twas the night before kindergarten

In the blink of an eye he is going to be off to college. It seems like yesterday I was meeting him for the first time and here we are! Whit is my worrier. He is the clingy one who hates new situations. But he proudly walked in the Mrs Renfroe's class at open house and loved it!! He is beyond excited tonight and I am so thankful for that! I love this little boy so much! He loves everything about school and learning new things. I can't wait to watch him soak it all up! Here's to a great year of kindergarten! Maybe time will slow down a little! And maybe by college they will have a children's book I can read you about the night before college.... ;) I love you!!

Big deal

It is kind of a big deal to have your grandmother and great grandmother at your soccer game. ❤️

Adore...

I adore so much about my life. Life is crazy busy these days. I don't get to sit down ever. Like some days I feel like crying because all I want to do is sit down. Yet, somehow in the midst of the chaos I am granted moments of adoration for my life. So here's a few moments of my day that I just love these days....

Night time snuggles , I wouldn't trade these moments for the world. It combines he best things ever, my kids and sitting. ;)

Car drop off line: I know this sounds crazy but I love that sweet moment of a kiss and a hug, them bounding out the door excited for their day... 

Soccer: I love watching whit play. It makes me happy and sad all at the same time! He is getting so big!

Kennedy conversations: I get a play by play of the 2nd grade drama. I hope she always feels like she can talk to me about how she feels. We have life lesson conversations daily and I love every minute of it!

Riley: old girl still has our hearts. I feel like I am on borrowed time with her and I am so thankful for each day she is with us. That precious dog has walked through so much with me. 

Cash: he is free to a good home after eating my glasses, my uggs, and an American girl dol ;) it is a good thing we are in love or we might really give him to you! Somehow we became extreme dog lovers and I don't know what I would do without that big baby. He is my running buddy, my snuggle buddy, and the one who keeps me vacuuming on a daily basis. He just belongs here. 

You know the moment that you look at your family and realize you are blessed beyond words? Like you search so hard for a way to explain it but nothing will do it justice? Sometimes it happens in big moments, like the day you first meet your child or the day you get married. Then sometimes God just gives you a random wends exact in October to be so overwhelmed with thankfulness that you just have to try to put it in words. There are days that are hard and I am not thankful. There are days I want to cry. Today, I want to make sure the blog world knows (if anyone reads this anymore) and the future me knows how much I have been blessed I am. This life, this precious life is worth the ups and downs. I am honored and humbled tonight to have been given so many blessings.