Legacy

I hope that one day, these words that I write down tell a little of the legacy I am leaving behind. In our small town, we lost a young man this week, to a great family, that deserves only happiness and is filled with sorrow right now. My heart aches for them. To lose a child, is something unimaginable. This tragic event makes me stop and reflect upon what I have and am blessed with. I truly view each birthday that my kids celebrate as a gift. I got to spend that many years knowing and raising them. I have been given so many precious moments that I cherish. Each day that passes is crazy busy, yet it is a day that I am given with these precious miracles and I should be so thankful. Live in today.... I think that says volumes. I don't need to be waiting for tomorrow and what is to come. I need to live in today. I need to cherish today, no matter what it has brought me. I had one of those days at work, where I wish I could just be a stay at home mom and not be so stressed and then I came home to a bustling house of kids and dinners and homework and I realized through a very wise friend that we need to leave work at work. I need to live in the part of the day that matters most. I am so blessed to be a teacher and help mold lives. That is what is important there. And when I walk through these doors, the precious family I have been given is my focus. Who knows when life will change? In an instant our world could be broken. I choose today. I choose to be thankful for this day. It will never come again and I will never know what day is my last. So little ones in this house, know that each and everyday I choose to thank God for you. I thank Him for giving us this day together. Your daddy and I love and cherish each moment of your childhoods and I hope and pray to watch you grow into amazing adults as well. You make me better and this day, this amazing day (the ordinary really long one where I am tired) and I am so grateful to have shared it with you. 

Memories

I am glad you get to take memories with you. This little piece of heaven was placed in our lives 11 years ago and I am forever thankful for every single memory within these walls. How do you say goodbye to so many memories? How in the world will I be able to close the door one last time? Kennedy had an emotional moment yesterday crying and crying about leaving here. I tried to console her, but most of me just understood that she needed to cry. She hasn't known anything else other than this house. Goodness we have grown up since that Christmas of 2004. 2 young kids, moving in and starting a family. We have walked through so much. A lot of prayer went through this precious house, a lot of tears, so many laughs, new babies, a new puppy, and more friends and family than we can count. We are blessed. 1650 square feet felt like a mansion and now I don't think we can put one more thing in here! Yet, as we walk through the next phase, I am incredibly thankful we are blessed enough to be able to provide a larger home for our kids to grow up in, and I don't take that lightly. It is my hope that our new home will be a new place of joy and laughter. I know hard times will fall upon us, but I am so thankful that no matter what the roof over our head looks like, that we are together. I have these people. These tiny humans that became people, that became my support, are my reason for living each day. This little family I get to call mine blesses me beyond words. I am looking forward to our new memories, yet so thankful for all the ones we get to carry with us. In a few short days our Middleground house will be someone else's, and I hope it means as much to them as it has to us. 

Whit

Whit: age 6, "mommy, I think I love you even more than you love me." 

Be still my heart. This little boy had it at day one and I love him more and more each day. 

Moving forward in faith..

Happy news to report! We have a contact on the house! I got really worried about finding somewhere to move, but by the grace of God we have found that too! It is my prayer as we walk through this transition and I seek out what God wants for my family. He has provided us a perfect rental home in our neighborhood and that was such a blessing!  We want a bigger house. That I a a big want and not a need I am aware. It is my hope and prayer that being able to build a larger home, that I can open it up to so many people. I want my house to be a place where anyone and very one is welcome. I want messy kids throwing themselves on my furniture and eating all my food. I want to host church gatherings and meetings. I want it to be a place where my kids enjoy growing up and anyone and everyone feels welcome. I am praying us through every step of the way. Greg is really worried about the  build sing a house journey, but it is my hope and prayer that we really pray about each and everything and it will all turn out just as it should. So here beings a new journey for my sweet little family, as we step out from our little world here in middleground and step out into a whole new experience! I can't wait to see what the future holds!! 

Sweet summertime

Well summer is here and maybe, just maybe I will pick back up on this blogging. I am hoping someday my kids will care enough to read about their childhoods. We shall see about that one! My hope for this summer is that it is full of laughter, lots of downtime, tons of books, conversations, games, and just plain old school fun! I spent some time playing with the card shark of the family tonight. This boy is way too competive. He started it off with a stacked deck on his part full of all draw 4 cards. I love old school summer time fun. Tonight was no and chalk tic tac toe in the driveway. Tomorrow afternoon officially begins my summer! I am so thankful to have endless days aged of me to enjoy these miracles. Here's to summer 2015! May it be the best one yet!! 

Moments that last forever

Sometimes motherhood is filled with dirty dishes, ending fights, washing clothes, endless worry... But then we are given precious moments that we want to remember. Tonight is one of those. I have my boy all to myself and he is snuggled up with me. I will never in my life forget the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me. He gently takes my face in his hands  and kisses me oh so sweetly. I ask if he will ever love another girl like he loves me. His reply "maybe." I know all too soon that sweet heart of his will be all grown and he will fall in love. She is one lucky girl I know that for sure. All I could think of tonight is that I will forever cherish that look in his eyes and when he is all grown I will always remember the moments of how he loved me the most.. I love you so much Whitfield Daniel. You've had my heart since the day I found out you existed. My life is so much better because of you. What a lucky girl she is out there growing up somewhere, to someday meet you and fall in love.i sure hope she knows what an amazing person you are. 

Moments that last forever

Sometimes motherhood is filled with dirty dishes, ending fights, washing clothes, endless worry... But then we are given precious moments that we want to remember. Tonight is one of those. I have my boy all to myself and he is snuggled up with me. I will never in my life forget the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me. He gently takes my face in his hands  and kisses me oh so sweetly. I ask if he will ever love another girl like he loves me. His reply "maybe." I know all too soon that sweet heart of his will be all grown and he will fall in love. She is one lucky girl I know that for sure. All I could think of tonight is that I will forever cherish that look in his eyes and when he is all grown I will always remember the moments of how he loved me the most.. I love you so much Whitfield Daniel. You've had my heart since the day I found out you existed. My life is so much better because of you. What a lucky girl she is out there growing up somewhere, to someday meet you and fall in love.i sure hope she knows what an amazing person you are.